i searched for some groups on facebook tonight about subsequent pregnancy after loss. i thought maybe that would help. and i found a group, joined it, and commented to a woman who had lost a baby in 2008 and was hoping to have one in 2009. it turns out, she did have one in 2009. and then he died too, at 2 weeks old. both babies were full term.
i immediately left the group.
and then i was catching up on reading the blogs i follow, and was updated on another story of a bereaved mother.
after losing her firstborn.. look what she's done. three more little miracles. that's right. THREE. she gave birth to her fourth child on 13 november 2009. three stories of joy after the absolute worst devastation a human can endure.
the picture of herself with her husband on the bed, with their shirts off (it's not explicit), gave me the chills. i had to look back at the same photo with their firstborn from 2003. i bet she feels that she's aged a thousand years, but she doesnt look like she's aged even a minute.
Breathe deeply, and feel the bliss that has so saturated every ounce of my being that it must emanate across the entire earth with its magnitude.
I am so, so happy.
And the weight off my back is inexplicable. This combination of ecstatic joy and relief is really unbelievable.
how has her heart not exploded?
http://happy-sadmama.blogspot.com/2009/11/warm-wind.html
feel the bliss, emanating across the entire earth.
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Oh, Beth. I'm glad you found that blog to give you such comfort after reading of the other woman's back-to-back tragedies. The young priest who did our baby George's funeral shared with us and our children that his mother's first baby, a boy, died of SIDS at just a few months old. His mother had 10 more children and they were all fine and have grown up knowing about their big brother who died as a baby.
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