year in review

It’s really interesting to find this new app that lets you see your status updates on facebook.

What a difference a year can make. Excitement and joy turned to devastation and faith…. The amazing thing is that I can remember a lot of the comments I got for a lot of these updates. The excitement and happiness I experienced during this pregnancy is so evident. I was in love from the very start. This isn’t all the updates for the year, but it includes almost all of the pregnancy ones…



is overwhelmed with emotion. i might just go back to bed despite sleeping 12 hours...December 17, 2008

[I had known I was pregnant for a week, but a lot of people didn’t know yet. I don’t remember if this was good emotion or bad, probably a little of both]


can't keep a secret!!!!!!!! December 20, 2008

[that gave it away for a lot of people….]



is working the next three nights, so I'll be sleeping in between and not much else. Happy Holidays to all! Oh, and I'm pregnant :-D December 22, 2008


2 years and counting with the most wonderful man, a movie that makes you laugh and cry, a tasty dinner, a baby on the way.. what more could i possibly want - December 30, 2008 [2 year anniversary - I don’t remember what movie we saw, but we ate at The Melting Pot]



my peanut is an inch long, from head to butt, not couting the legs! haha.next week, he'll be a whopping 3 inches long.. tripling in size AGAIN! i love my life January 11, 2009
[third ultrasound, and I thought it was a boy]


went to my fave restaurant last night & when they put the plate in front of me,i didnt eat a bite.. then slept all night & all day. i really do love this baby! February 11, 2009


is off to the doc! nope, not time to find out yet! :) February 16, 2009

[found out it’s a girl March 9]

seeing a whole lot of pink around here lately! March 15, 2009

you are officially "showing" when you look pregnant in your shadow! April 3, 2009




it's now officially "too late" to call out of work. ugh. toughing it out. tylenol ("pregnancy category A") is really not doin it for me. i miss advil :( love you my baby!!! April 11, 2009

[lots of status updates in April about being sick!]


third trimesterrrr!!! :D :D :D May 1, 2009

big, biiiiig points to my husband... i came home from work to my very first mother's day gift everrrr!! :-D May 10, 2009


extended mother's day today with good news from the specialty docs.. babygirl is growing well despite her mommy's shortcomings (im missing a vessel!) saw her beautiful face and perfect little body.. she is over 2 pounds! that's bigger than some of the babies I take care of in NICU! May 11, 2009


[what happened to my baby?? :,( ]


had a perfect time today.. thanks everyone for coming!!! May 17, 2009 [after my baby shower]

im hungry (imagine that) & i just read that rocky river church is about to serve pizza outside and it's gorgeous.. could it get any better!? May 20, 2009

workin on booking our babymoon... last trip for just the two of us! June 6, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET & SEXY JOHN!!!! who knew that 8 years ago when I missed your birthday party and went on our first date with you 2 days later instead (all part of the game lol).. who knew where we'd be today!!! I LOVE YOU!!! June 8, 2009


babygirl still breech but weighs 3lb 11oz.. she's so healthy, they arent recommending any more ultrasounds! good girl! next time i see her, i will be HOLDING her!! fave doctor quote: "the baby's really not paying any attention to her two vessel cord".. June 9, 2009

[I did have more ultrasounds after that though… I say again.. What happened to my baby?? She was so healthy..]


papers papers everywhere. yet another form of nesting. seriously though.. why do i have a file folder of utility bills from the apartment?! June 10, 2009



just booked our creekside log cabin for a quiet and relaxing babymoon weekend! cant wait! June 11, 2009



doctor's appt and class today... starting to feel more and more uncomfortable :( lot's of questions for the doc today.. i have a list.. poor guy lol. June 15, 2009


workin tonight and tomorrow, massage thursday, wedding friday, and babymoon weekend in the mountains for john and me! congrats melody&mike!! <3<3<3 June 16, 2009


just know the weekend was fabulous and relaxing because all i can think about is that i wanna go back! June 23, 2009


IT'S JULY!!! ONE MORE MONTH.. getting ready for baby shower #2 today, so excited! (thanks carey!!).. then one last review for PALS and off to bed early tonight, working the next two DAYS (yuck) and then back to nights for the 4th.. can you see fireworks from the roof of levine’s? July 1, 2009


praying for baby, who is breech again.. although i use the word "again" very loosely.. i dont believe them when they say last week she was head down. she is perfectly healthy and petite though.. unlike mommy who is extremely unfomfortable and huge.. July 8, 2009


nervous and not sure what decision is right...July 9, 2009

[I was thinking about whether to do the version or not.]


big week this week... working, appointments, big decisions, possible version, 37 weeks.. FULL TERM in a few days. i am tired just thinking about it. July 13, 2009


FULL TERM.. i get to see my mom in 1 week and my daughter in 2!! WOW!!! July 17, 2009


:,(


waiting up until 9 so i can call HR and tell them when maternity leave starts.. 3 more shifts to go! (that's the plan anyway... the "plan".. HA.) then off to bed, workin tonight 11-7. July 20, 2009


tired, but uncomfortable and can't sleep, afternoon tv sucks, awaiting my mom's arrival. and all outta that chocolate milk :( July 23, 2009



4 days…. July 27, 2009


7 people said they liked my status yesterday.. how about this one? do you like this one too? "3 days!" July 28, 2009


[this was the day of the last perfectly normal NST… it’s like a horror novel when you know the end. You still wish it would end differently, but you know it won’t]

john has a blog now. and i wont tell you where it is without his permission. it's not for you to read for your own benefit (although you definitely would!) it's for him to write as an outlet. it makes me cry.. in such a good way. i am so, so lucky. July 28, 2009

2 more nights, one more day…. July 29, 2009 at 11:11pm


i always have this in my head when something important to me is approaching: "tomorrow we'll discover what our God in heaven has in store, one more dawn, one more day, one day more!" be culturally well rounded and name what that's from :) July 29, 2009 at 11:17pm

[just hours before my life came crashing down….]

rain.. August 5, 2009

still my baby …. August 22, 2009

of everything ive lost.. one is the ability to leave lighthearted status messages …. August 26, 2009


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and you know how the rest of the horror story goes.

good riddance, 2009. the door won't hit you in the ass on the way out, rather, i'm slamming it in your fucking nasty face.