cold

john and i went to the outside service at church today.. it was pretty cold but im always lifted by seeing all those people. but we're also both getting sick, so i've been asleep all day... cuddled up warm in the bed.

i just miss her so much. i want to cuddle up with her in this weather, lazy sundays, keeping each other warm. there's a little pink blanket on my bed.. it's way too small for me. it never touched her.. but it was still hers.

someone at church today, who i'd never seen, had our exact stroller. i wanted to pat her on the shoulder and ask her if she's enjoying my life.

i promise i have something more uplifting to write about later..