was it really my turn again?
I made that a status update on facebook, and the response was that it was never my turn or anyone's turn in the first place. but babyloss DOES and WILL CONTINUE to happen all over the world, all the time, whether we believe, hope, pray, take good care, conceive easily, conceive with difficulty, like it or not... I'm just wondering why some people have to go twice in a row. alert the media, I'm angry and feeling sorry for myself. it's ok, no one's coming here for rays of sunshine and optimism, I'm out of stock. it's hard enough to be sad, but angry too? I rest in the fact that my supporters will keep coming back no matter how nasty and raw it gets in here.
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Massive hugs
ReplyDeleteYou are right, anger is a hard emotion. I am so sorry for your great loss and your pain. Give yourself permission to feel however you feel! Hugs, love and prayers!
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ReplyDeleteHi Beth. I have been reading your blog the past few days. I lost my son Luke last April at 17 weeks because of an incompetent cervix. I just lost my daughter Allyson on Feb 25th at 27.4 weeks because of incompetent cervix...she died of a brain bleed. I get it...I know how you feel. I want it to be someone else's turn.
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ReplyDeleteTried to comment this morning on my stupid phone and couldn't.
ReplyDeleteJust want to let you know you are loved, supported, and safe with so many...
I keep coming back because what you say is so raw. You tell it like it is and I admire that about you. To you I say bring it on if it helps... we can take it and we can relate and those who cannot are free to find somewhere else to read.
ReplyDeleteTo brighter days,
xo
((hugs)) real emotion is not always kittens,rainbows and sunshine.. I think alot of us know this, and is the reason we come back.. xo
ReplyDeleteit's great to express your self in any way needed can't hold it all in and we all understand that lossing a loved one is the hardest thing u will ever endure in life so its fine by me that your completely honest and telling everyone exactually how u feel about things.
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I agree with Jaime. You tell it like it is. Be angry and just vent away. We'll always be here to support you, no matter what you say. We all feel those emotions at one point or another. (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteWe keep coming back because we care, we've been there before, we know the pain, we share your pain, and we want to give you a hug.
ReplyDeleteI also wondered why I had two turns in a row :(
ReplyDeleteIt sucks, we understand.
Anger is part of grieving, and we understand that of you and anyone else in your situation. We don't come here expecting a bed of roses, but to support you. You have had tremendous losses. Just wanted to let you know I care - I have buried a child, and I understand. Praying for you....
ReplyDeleteI could have written that post myself 5 years ago...after our third loss in a row. Two miscarriages and an infant death start to make you wonder...Just know that there are others out there who are praying for you contniually! We've been there and are lifting you up.
ReplyDeleteyou are right. we will be here. through it all. we know. we understand. we get it. so rage my friend, or cry, or both. whatever you need.
ReplyDeleteHappened twice here, too.
ReplyDeleteIsaac died 70 minutes after birth last April due to a fatal birth defect.
And, I miscarried in January, 8 weeks.
A lot of people just suck in the support department....
Thinking of you!
xo M.
*hugs* I wish it didn't happen twice, but it did for me as well 8 weeks and then we lost Jonathan at 18 weeks. I wish loss just didn't happen. *hugs* You have every right to be angry and upset.
ReplyDeleteWriting to let you know that I watched the slideshow of your beautiful girl. Nothing I can say except that I'm so, so sorry for your losses. I'm holding your daughter, and all the babies in Heaven that I've read about (along with their parents), in my heart.
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